Regreso

If you knew that the end was near, how would you like to live your final hours? If you had the chance to avoid the circumstances that lead up to your hardest fall, what would you change in hopes of avoiding the consequences? How would you like to be remembered?

As I reflect on the past year, I can’t shake the feeling that I’ve lived a lifetime in only 12 months. I stand in front of the mirror, 5’2 in height, brown skin, and the same chipped front tooth that has been there since December of 2020. My hair is short, yet again, for what feels like the 100th time. But I don’t feel the same. 

The “lifetime” I lived within the last year, has shifted something drastically in my psyche. I can see it in the way I walk, the way my smile extends a little wider, or in the ease of my speech. Even if I still carry all of the idiosyncrasies that make me, me, or if I’m still navigating through entanglements I once created, I don’t recognize this version of myself. 

Is this the beginning of the end?

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“Todo Llegara a Su Tiempo” Vol. 2 (poetry series)

This summer I took the initiative of seeking and visiting a new therapist. Not only has this experience helped me navigate through the trauma I’ve had the difficulty of letting go, but it’s also forced me to understand my perspective on relationships, sexuality, feminity, and race.  As I’ve taken some time to just live life, I also revisited old drafts of poems and recreated these pieces.

The past, present, and future are constantly in dialogue. They meet when I take the time to reflect. They force me to extract inspiration from my surroundings and appreciate life for what it is and less for what it “should” be.

I encourage you to do the same. Allow yourself to be vulnerable, unravel yourself and enjoy your process of reconstruction. Thank you to my beautiful friends Amy, Lydia, Natalie, and Vanessa and all the beautiful women who have inspired me throughout this process. This one is for you. Continue reading ““Todo Llegara a Su Tiempo” Vol. 2 (poetry series)”